you build sth with heart probably others treat it like dirt.. i know i've been negative, emo watever u call it.. almost everyday i've to go thru it again and again.. i got the facts into me and i feel like shit.. i dun wanna stayed home and i dun wanna move out either.. tot of moving out = more spending, must ji ren li xia, hate the fact that there are conditions to move over and i'm a neat freak.. last probably i love mum..

been packing up this weekend.. clearing the stuff makes my heart bleed.. causes me body ach.. jus totally felt like shit.. i wanna torn myself into pieces or simply jus vanish in thin air.. i dun wanna blame anyone.. just wanna know how to solve the problem.. the only solution is not welcome but is the only choice.. we dun have a choice, do we?

this is not a happy ending.. bear with it.. i love my mummy and dearie zilly..