is coming to the end of the year where all the new year resolution will start pouring in.. before it, i shall kick it off with a handful of reflections..


achievements in 2009?
nth except a bunch of complains..


i woke up one morning, looked into the mirror and asked why am i here? qn myself y i dun smile at things anymore? qn my y things ain't getting in place where they should happen. i realise i'm piled up with alot of things, a bunch of emotions and many many things undone.. i can hardly breathe.. i'm tired, lethargic or watever you called it..


is time to sit down and think.. is time to set aside what's for the future.. maybe is time to take a break.. the busy schedules.. the work and the everything else.. i wanna study full time like others do.. scrap thru all the exam like others do.. have fun when i still am able to.. i miss the good times..

if money is the concern. i would rather be broke but happy.. NV wealthy but problematic/ emo..


i need to find out what i want.. where and what am i getting myself into? when can i actually fall out from this shit? everything feels so different now..