4.45 : i start typing this. 45 mins to off work. am talking to one of my collegue. i admit i do envy him. he's born with a silver spoon. with a better off family background. and he's not a nasty proud peacock. he had an awesome thinking too.

i sat down and looked at myself. wat do i have? i dun blame my family for being not so better off. i love my family at least i get enough warmth around. maybe i should blame myself for puting more effort in studies. so i do not have to be stuck down here.

life's unfair.
when i see things falling in place, there comes a typhoon, wrecked up the nice painting.
when i had this perfect thinking : i end up feeling disappointed.

things comes best when you least expected it. at least i try. i had school today. dread. lethargic.